Ephesians 6

I was drawn to the passage in Ephesians 6:19 where Paul is asking the saints to pray for him. He requests their prayers so that whenever he opens his mouth, words may be given him so that he will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which he was an ambassador in chains. Pray that i may declare it fearlessly, as I should, he ends with.
I am so grateful for his request. I have recognized with the most startingly (is that a word) clarity this holiday season how fearful i am in certain environments to share the gospel. My fear of man takes over and i blend in with the crowd. I hate this fact, but must admit its' truth.
My prayer and request of those that read this and know me is that i might begin, especially in those places where i have feared, to proclaim the gospel with boldness...leaving my reputation up to God..what people think of me up to God. It is so easy to write about and so difficult to act upon. I hear all around me, i don't want to offend..I don't want to turn them off..well, if they are going to hell do you think it matters whether or not they like what i say?
I am not talking about being rude or forcing my way into situations where i have not been invited..But, it is WAY too easy for me to blend in and try to fit in so that i am found cool or that i belong...I don't belong..God tells me that i am a stranger and a foreigner here on earth. My home is in heaven..I never meant to belong down here. He also tells me that if i deny Him (Jesus) before men, He will deny me before my Father in heaven.
I have no problem being bold around other believers that are walking with Christ..It is the lukewarm or unbelievers that i struggle with. The disciples were often thrown out of where they were witnessing..or run out of town..When was the last time any of us were thrown out or run out of town? We would say that we were out of line if that happened to us...we need to ponder that. Who are we out to please? Men or God?
I believe as we see other Christians living in this manner in the right spirit we can draw strength from them. Help us Father to live in such a way as to please you and not man.